Tuesday, March 27, 2012

Fashion Star

I love a good reality show. Heck, I even love a bad reality show. So when I saw an advertisement for Fashion Star last month I was excited. But kind of confused about the details of the show. The show has now aired three times and I've watched all three episodes and I like it. But I'm still confused about a lot of details. Here is a list of things I'm confused about:

1. Who is sewing the clothes that appear on the runway? How many people does each designer have helping them?

2. How long do they have to make the clothes?

3. The designers clothes are often styled with other clothes for the runway shows. Who designed these other clothes? Where do the other clothes come from?

4. Where is the fabric coming from? How much do they have to choose from?

6. Do the designers have a material budget?

7. Who retains the rights to the designs?

8. Who is producing the clothes that are being sold in the stores? The show? The stores? The designer? A third party?

9. Where is the money that the buyers are bidding (and paying for the clothes) going? The sum seams arbitrary. Is it only going to the production of the clothes? Is there any profit and if so who is it going to? The party involved in producing the clothes? The factory making the clothes? The show producers? Is the artist getting a percentage?

10. Are the designers on the show making any money on all these sales? Are they getting a percentage? Are they doing all this work for free?

11. Do they get a percentage of the final 6 million dollar order? And if so, how much? How much money do they win at the end of the show?

I like the show but I don't understand why it's so confusing. Jessica Simpson, please help me understand!

Monday, March 12, 2012

This Post is Depressing. . .

. . .  you've been for warned.  There comes a point in this whole process where I have come to a crossroads. Part of me wants to feel like a strong and courageous woman that just needs to bust out Destiny's Child "Survivor." And, the other part of me just wants to cry. Oh, and trust me. . . I.Have.Cried.
I want to be proud that I have come so far and done all of this on my own and then I realize. I am on my own. Nobody helps me. Everything I do is just that, I do it ALL. It kind of feels like a single mom syndrome or something. I take care of everybody else, but who takes care of me? I do everything for everybody else and who does things for me?
All I want is when I am sick and throwing up for someone to get me a blanket or something to drink. When I am laying on the couch and I am too tired to let the dogs outside I just want someone to do it for me. I guess I just never expected that I would be alone. This definitely wouldn't have been the life I'd pick. I wouldn't have picked being a homeowner, working full-time (and then some) an then bring 3 animals into the equation on top of that.
There is so much stress regarding work next year and school. I have no idea if I will have a job next year. I probably won't know for a few months, so that doesn't settle well. And, school. How in the heck am I going to pay for school?!? How do people do it? How do they work and take care of all their responsibilities and go to school at the same time? It stresses me out just to think about it all.
I know I should be super excited. . .  I mean I qualified for this house 100% on my own with NO help (not even emotional support really) from anybody. I am just days away from closing, but it still doesn't feel as good as I thought. I owe more than I thought I would and my payment is higher than I thought it would be. I know I'll manage ( I always do) but so much about life is unsettling.
I know that the divorce papers are in the works and I am just waiting to be served. It's an unsettling feeling, even thought I know it's coming and it doesn't make it feel any easier. I feel like I cannot even talk to people about it because I get reactions like... "GOOD", "About time!" blah .... blah.... blah. Honestly, people can say whatever they want, but it actually makes it harder on me and they are not making me feel better, it makes me feel worse.
Of course, I want all of this to be over. It's going to be a huge relief and I am ready to move on, but the pain is still there. It's like if you have a family member dying of cancer and you cry when they die. Then someone says to you . . . "Well, don't you want them to be in a better place and out of pain and misery?" It's like DUH you want them to be out of their pain and misery, but it doesn't make it any easier or make you cry any less. It hurts. It sucks.  I feel like I am in the same situation.
       

Saturday, March 3, 2012

Melting Crayons

I have lots of broken crayons around my classroom and I used to throw them away UNTIL I saw an idea on Pinterest (SHOCKER!) and just had to try it. I picked up 3 silicone ice cube trays at IKEA for $0.99 each and brought home my crayons to try this over the weekend. 

 I sprayed them with Pam and then broke up the crayons to filled the molds.





The perfect baking temperature seemed to be 275 for 15-20 minutes.


I don't think I will use the starfish mold again because they broke when I took them out, but the hearts and flowers are very cute. 

After taking them out of the oven I put them in the freezer to cool for about 5 minutes. 

They didn't turn out quite as well as I thought, but still cute. Next time I will take out all the black, brown and gray colors, so they aren't so drab. Oh well!