Saturday, December 24, 2011

Marry My TRUE Soul Mate

This is a hard one to write about because, in fact, at 21 years old I truly believed that I had met my soulmate. My perfect match. I felt so lucky and blessed to had found, at such a young age, what some people search a lifetime for.
I didn't find my happy ending after all, so now I am nearly 27 years old and  I'm going back to the drawing board to figure out what is next.
I like to relate this all to teaching. I graduated college at 23 years old and I never thought I would turn 26 and still be subbing. I assumed at the very least I would have a classroom by 25. I was 26 ( and a half ) when I finally got my dream and although it sucked big time to be subbing that long, I now know that it was really good for me and all it all prepared me for what was/is to come.
I hope that my "starter marriage" will have taught me enough that I will be so much better when I get my second go at it. At times I have thought that maybe that was it for me. Married once and it failed. Maybe I am meant to be single for the rest of my life. . . maybe I am not meant to have kids?? I suppose it is all a possibility.
All I can rely on is...
Jeremiah 29:11 - 'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the LORD, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.'
When it's the right time it will happen. Somehow I just don't think I am meant to be an old lady with a bunch of cats. Heck. . . I don't really like cats. My Rollie is just so special. When he is gone my cat days will be over, so there is no way that can be what is meant for my furture.



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