Insight Part IV: The Final Chapter

"You just gotta get back on the horse, Coop. 

You gotta giddy up, horsey!"

~Summer, The O.C.

Bess Myerson said it best, " To fall in love is awfully simple, but to fall out of love is simply awful." It takes time to fall out of love. Trust me, I know.  I'm getting there and it's not easy. Isn't it amazing how you can just fall in love with somebody in a matter of weeks, days, hours or maybe I fell in love within minutes. And now there is a huge possibility that I could remain in love with this person for the rest of my life. I know exactly what you are thinking.... "WHY??! After everything he has done to you how could you have any feelings whatsoever for this person except a passion of hatred!"  It all brings me back to a quote I love from the movie, Love and Other Drugs... "You meet a thousands of people and then you meet one person and your life is changed forever." How true is that?!? It's sad, but true. 

Now if going through all of this is not hard enough there is nothing... and I mean NOTHING more annoying than the things people say to you (sometimes without even thinking about it), such as...

• "You're not getting any younger"
• "You'll meet someone when you least expect it"
• "Maybe you should try lowering your standards"
• "One day you'll look back on all of this and laugh"
• "Many people never meet "the one" and live very fulfilled lives"
• "You only want to be with people who don't want to be with you."

Sooooo yeahhhh all those statements make me feel like a real winner! Can you sense the sarcasm here?!?

I just hate the way that I could never hate him.

Don't get me wrong there are pros to this, what you call "singleness." Such as, going out whenever I want, meeting new people all the time and no drama. It's a new start for me. I don't have someone I have to worry about, to check on or to feel guilty about.

Will I ever love again?

Probably.