Changes

Have you ever felt as though you were in a place in life where you need to make changes about the people you involve in your life?

I hate the feeling of losing a friend... You know you ARE still friends, but you feel them slipping away?

I have two people in mind...

Unfortunately, one believes that we can still have a friendship even though she made a choice that badly impacted our friendship. I'm not quite sure how to handle this one. I don't feel the need to get into much detail, but let me tell you this.... trying to stay friends with people you knew and hung out with as a couple is tough. It's like people want to figure who which one of us can they still be friends with. Why in the hell do people have to CHOOSE to be only friends with me.... or ONLY friends with him? It's simple if you see him don't talk about him to me or vice versa. I shouldn't let this bother me, but many times I feel as though I get punished because of bad choices that HE made.  I did NOTHING and I repeat NOTHING wrong... HE DID! I've lost enough and the fact I'm losing friendship too makes me sick to me stomach.

The second person I feel has used me. Do you ever have those people who are there for you when you need them a FIRST... when the drama is happening and they can get all in the mix?!? When things settle down and the dust settles they disappear? Or they just REPLACE you for someone else. This just stinks. I'm still in the midst of dealing with something very tragic and I DO still need people to lean on. This person could relate in some ways as to what I was going though.... or I should say they thought they could relate, but in reality they have NO idea of the pain, but whatever. Still to have someone who is really there for you and then to have that person just remove them self from you life because they they don't want to be anymore. Or maybe it is just that the person wants to side with him because.... well I can think of a few reasons, but still I feel as though I am being punished and again.... I did nothing.... NOTHING
to deserve this.

☼ Thank you MB for always being my faithful friend though it all! ☼

♥ I adore you. ♥